From the recording Worthy - Volume II
This track was recorded live and had anomalies that could not be resolved. I decided to use this recording anyhow because of its performance. So i added instruments etc to help the song. It was the only performance that I didn't cry like a baby. Written & Recorded for the greatest person I ever knew. My mom. May she rest in peace.
Lyrics
Morning of mourning
I won’t pretend that it’s not a bad day.
I won’t pretend that I’m okay.
I won’t pretend that I have no more feelings or regrets.
I won’t pretend that this didn’t shake me, I thought we had some time left.
I won’t pretend that I didn’t need a friend today.
I won’t pretend that I don’t blame god in some ways.
I won’t pretend that I’ll ever forgive him for my pain.
I won’t pretend that you weren’t an angel who’s light was my grace.
I won’t pretend that this is not your song.
I won’t pretend that I’ve been staying strong.
I won’t pretend that I still feel like living now that you’re gone.
I won’t pretend that I don’t need my wife & my son to carry on.
I won’t pretend that I don’t miss you mom.
And I won’t pretend that I’ll never see you again… love your son.